September 27th, 2005
|02:21 pm - sorry|
I'm sorry I haven't been able to keep up with practically anyone. I got this dang live journal so I would be able to stay in touch but taking the 10 minutes to check it seems like such a long time when I have piles of homework I should be doing. Practically everything seemed to be due today. 100 pages of reading about Galileo, paper, test, project. I figured, yeah Tuesday’s over only to realize I have about 200 pages to read in a matter of two days, a math assignment, a math test, and a paper to start. Man, I feel loved by my teachers. Coming from a school of 15 where the only other girl in your class seemed to only put make up on and by 10:30 you had finished enough school work to be able to go watch Dawson's Creek for two hours and come back for your two afternoon classes, is a lot different from going to college. As prepared as they were trying to make me...they really didn't do a good job. Sometimes I feel so fucking behind and I guess that's what helps me keep going, knowing that in order to stay on top of things I have to go beyond everything I've ever done, and luckily, so far I have all A's. It's sad though. It's the end of September and I'm already looking forward to Christmas break...better yet, I'm already looking forward to graduation, and I'm not sure how much harder it can get but man am I expecting it! So, in light of all of this:
I'm sorry for not posting, or calling anyone as much as I would like. I'm sorry for not seeing the people who live in AR every single week like I should be. I'm sorry for not sending enough emails or responding to other people's blogs. I'm sorry for not really getting on My Space. I'm sorry for not calling people back. I'm sorry for not calling people just to talk because I have too much f-ing homework. I'm sorry for not being able to go to John's play and seeing him as much as I wish and for making things harder than it should be. I really am sorry! I love you all so much, and I really hope you can just idk don't think too bad of thoughts if I don't pick up the phone or call you back right away. I love you all so much!!
Current Mood: I need more coffee!
September 12th, 2005
I'm sorry I haven't typed anything in forever and a half. I'm so busy with school I seem to have little time to do anything but study! I've pulled two 2:00am homework sessions and am so freaking tired it ain't even funny. The sad part is despite how terribly drained I am, I'm loving every single minute of it. I've met some really cool people, of course no where near as cool as my llamas but definitly awesome intelligent freaking people. All of my classes are great, and not trying to sound like a reqruiter but the Scholars Program really is totally Awesome,and had great benefits... not only that but would you be closer to some of us llamas. Before you start looking at college seriously come down here to scholars day and you can hang out and go to our classes and see the llamas while you here. Education and fun, what a way to convice your parents!! I love you all dearly and am thinking about you all of the time!!
Current Mood: SHEVA GIVE ME SLEEP!!
September 6th, 2005
So, the llamas, well some of the llamas came over the weekend. We had a blast and it was really nice seeing every one again. It only makes me believe that we'll keep in close contact more and more. School is going really well. It's hard, but I'm loving every second of it, and as much as you might think Arkansas sucks you should all seriously consider the Scholar Program here at UALR because it's a great program and it's for us smart kids! Goodness, I sound like a requiter! Good news, I got a 103 on my fist college exam which totally made my year, not only that but did I find a dance class for cheap that I'm going to go check out and see how it goes,hopefully well. I'm totally excited!! Oh I got elected to the Donaghey Student Council which also rocks the house....snaps for Michelle who's running for homecoming queen, that's AWESOME!! I love you all and hope you had a good long weekend.
mucho lllama love
P.S. Dr Lanza let me take home a crystalise (butterfly in 'cacoon' from but butterflys don't have cacoons) so I could see it emerge! thought that was pretty darn cool!
Current Mood: energetic
August 18th, 2005
|01:56 pm - what the heck mom?|
So, I came about this.... ! ! close to flying to San Diego today and staying with John and being able to see Justin and Brianne. Whatever happened you might ask? My mother happened. What is up with that!! I miss you guys so much, and I hate the fact that I couldn't come up there. I almost started crying while the evil purple wearing witch dentist lady was cleaning my teach...not exactly the most opportune time to have tears streaming down your face, luckily she pocked something in my gum which made me more pissed than upset, thus drying up the tears. I really hope my mother's ideas of me needing to "move on" won't last forever. I'm not sure how I could ever move on from my llama drama kiddos, I just don't think it's possible.
On a brighter note...I have clean teeth! My indifference for starting school just keeps on growing. At this point I would do anything to just go on tour with all of you guys, and put the premed or business or history career on hold, but we'll see what happens with the Heifer heads.
I love you all, and miss you mucho!!
Current Mood: man this sucks butt
August 17th, 2005
|03:32 pm - The paper!! what what!!|
Well I went to orientation today....BLAH! Probably one of the more boring things I've ever done. The idea of becoming a Business major becomes more and more boring. Who know's what'll happen. At this point I'm just flying by the seat of my pants.
Oh my gosh, so we're in the PAPER! I could not believe my eyes. Us Llama kids, are in the freaking paper. For those of you who can't get it, here is the article:
Artistic teens stage drama to spread message of hope
BY RHONDA OWEN
Earlier this summer, when people asked him what he would be doing during his break from school, all John Selby could offer was, "I’m going to Arkansas."
Now, ask the San Diego teen what he did during his summer vacation and he might talk your ear off. After two weeks at the Heifer Ranch in Perryville, the 17-year-old says he’s ready to spread the word about the roots of poverty and hunger, and what people can do to help those in need.
From Aug. 1 to Friday, John and 13 other teens participated in Heifer International’s Promising Artists program (nicknamed "Drama Llama"), of which the focus was for the teens to "blend their artistic talents with Heifer’s mission to end hunger and save the world," according to the nonprofit organization’s publicists. The teens said they learned about the artists’ program at school or through their churches.
"We didn’t really know what we’d do when we got here. Now we have a message to spread," John says. The experience culminated Friday in an hour-long performance-art production written and performed by the teenagers. Through skits, monologues, dance and music, they shared what they learned at Heifer Ranch.
It hasn’t been decided if the Promising Artists program will be repeated, says Tim Newman, Heifer’s manager of school programs. But the performance was videotaped, and copies of it and a show transcript may be made available to schools and other groups.
John and his fellow artists spent two nights and two days immersed in the ranch’s Global Village 2 experience, during which they lived the lives of people in underdeveloped nations. They were given only basic supplies, had to tend livestock and gardens and cook their own meals.
They lived and slept in primitive conditions, and they learned a bit about the realities of poverty and hunger firsthand.
During their stay at the ranch, they also watched films and presentations about Heifer’s work in the United States and internationally. They learned about different cultures and societies.
The experience wasn’t lost on them. Discussing it, the youths rush to speak, often interrupting each other or talking all at once. Thoughts tumble freely, melding as each contributes his perspective.
The teens, who come from all parts of the nation, said their time at Heifer Ranch was powerful and affirming. It prompted them to think more critically about their lifestyles.
"It makes us see how trivial the things we think we need are," says Stephan Rodriguez, 18, of Atlanta. "We don’t need TV or watches."
Sarah Goodell, 16, of Winchester, Mass., interrupts: "Yeah, I used to be like (looks at her watch) all the time, but I learned that without watches there’s more of a flow to your day."
"It really showed me the bond between families and their animals," John says, explaining that a goat or cow may support a whole family in an underdeveloped country. That bond "is really strong because they have to live off their animals. They depend on their animals for their life, their food."
The group worked with Atlanta-based playwright Lauren Gunderson to create their Friday production. "They’ve really responded to the Heifer story," she says. "This was not a drama camp, but was supposed to teach them to be more aware artists... so they can use their creativity with a message attached."
The intent of the show was to entertain people, as well as let the teens share their newfound knowledge.
"We’re not trying to make you feel guilty, but make you feel empowered about what you can do" to fight poverty and hunger, Stephan says.
John adds, "But while learning about poverty, you’re still seeing something beautiful."
This story was published Wednesday, August 17, 2005
WE TOTALLY ROCK!!!!
Current Mood: exstatic
August 16th, 2005
|07:53 pm - Much Better|
Seeing Kelsey today made life seem a lot better. I think my mind is finally starting to head out of the fog...I hope.
Current Mood: content
August 15th, 2005
|06:59 pm - I miss my llama drama babies|
I can't think about anything without feeling some void in my stomach. I feel so lost with out my fellow bad monkeys, the endless donkey sex, and fucking ginue fowel (sp?) I wasn't hanging by a thread waiting for Korla's email thank god she sent it out!! Thank you! I've been able to talk to John, Kelsey, Justin, and Stephan so far on the phone. I'm so excited about our chat room meet tomorrow. I think that'll help.
On the other side, I'm scared about starting school on Monday. Teaching my kids today went pretty well, and hanging out with my room mate seems to make me feel a little better. Naturally the revolution song is still stuck in my head..HELP!
I love you all,
Current Mood: numb